Wanderlust Hollywood // Filming & Then Some
Back at the end of summer of 2015, I hosted a flower crown workshop at Wanderlust Hollywood. What I also did was film a DIY tutorial! Even though it was not my first time, the production for this filming was legit and I was more than excited, a little nervous and a whole lot of curious to how everything would come together.
The experience itself was really nice...I worked with Alice from A*Light Productions and her team to create a DIY tutorial. She was so kind, supportive and really was a great resource and guide throughout the shoot and it made me really comfortable to just go with it. I always say that I am more a 'behind-the-scenes' kind of girl versus being in front of the camera, so it was definitely a shift into a zone of unfamiliarity for me. What I have done a lot this year since my retreat has been to recognize moments when I feel scared, hesitation or fear and in most instances than not, will now move towards that instead of running away. I find that in almost all cases, overcoming that sense of being uncomfortable has helped me grow as a person and the things that use to hold me back from experiencing a moment no longer do. I also recognize and tell myself that I am always trying my best and that is all I can ask for and put out into the world. So with the ideas of overcoming fear while understanding that I am just trying to do the best that I can do, I was ready to take on this challenge of being filmed.
During the actual filming and talking, I surprisingly felt super calm.. I figured I would just talk the way that I would with my friends and once I made that decision in my mind to just be as natural as possible, I felt a sense of pressure release off my back. Anyways, long story short, we filmed, we conquered and now it was time to wait for the film to be edited into what it is today.
I remember getting the notification of when the video came out on Wanderlust Hollywood's Facebook page. I couldn't wait to see it and I watched it with my family for the first time, so that was really special. It is a funny thing to see yourself on film. For me, my initial filter is to look at everything that I didn't like...which was pretty much to criticize how I spoke, how I looked and things like that. The production was beautiful and flawless, but it is so interesting how powerful the mind can be in shaping how you experience a moment. For me, initially it was to be super hard on myself and so that is what I saw and sought out when I first saw the video.
After having some time to reflect and check in with myself, I was able to shift my perspective and recognize that here is this amazing film produced by an all-star team and that I had a great opportunity beyond myself to share what I love with people who want to learn how to create flower crowns.
Looking back on this experience has taught me a few things:
1) It has taught me to love myself, always. Even though I had moments of difficulty with that during this experience, I came around and realized that I was just super proud of myself for doing something I don't usually do. That was what I wanted to focus on and from there, I was able to enjoy the video and feel proud for accomplishing something I have never really done before.
2) Putting yourself out there will make you vulnerable, but it is okay. Being vulnerable, especially for me, is a very scary place to be. It is essentially letting go of control of what something is and allowing it to be subject to your own and others' opinions. And that is okay! Everyone will have a thought of what things should or should not be. But what is great about being vulnerable is that you are willing to put yourself out there. It is a risk that is definitely scary for most people, but what I have learned through pushing myself through those boundaries is that at the end of the day, everything is okay. As long as your mental, emotional and physical health aren't compromised, putting yourself out there, whether big or small, allows you to grow, expand and learn so much about yourself. It's probably one of the biggest gifts you could give yourself...or at least, that is how I see it :)
\\ Here is the video created by Wanderlust Hollywood //